American Idol Finale '09

WTF WTF WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Everyone excuse my french, but are you shitting me right now?!?!

As you all know..... i have always been cheering on the awesomest ADAM LAMBERT
but he freaking lost to a married college student that has lopsided mouth when he sings -_-

Okay, that was pretty harsh of me... but seriously!!!!! why ? why ? why ?
Kris Allen is okay..... he's good at turning songs into acoustic versions. i LOOOOOVEEEEED his version of heartless....i mean honestly, i hated that song so much, but when i heard his version, i fell in love with it. Kris also has a nice face. he's not DROP DEAD GORGEOUS, but he has this certain charm that makes him quite atrrtactive... i hate the fact that he's married tho )=

all of those things are awesome, but he is absolutely no match for ADAM!!!!!!!!!!!!
i mean, ADAM can sing. He can hit high notes that can produce sonic radiation, his eyes are freaking mezmerizing, he looks sexy in a suit, his sense of style continues to amaze me every week, he's a great performer, he's tall xD, he has very nice hair, and........you know what ? if i say every single good thing about him, it will fill up the whole world wide web..... he is just all around amazing.

yet he lost?.... am i in the same planet here? am i the only one sensing that something went wrong? I'm not saying that Kris didn't deserve it.... Everyone knows they BOTH deserved the title, but Adam deserved it so muh more. This is killing me... i mean...

Did Kris win 'cuz he's a good christian? Heck, judging someone becuz of his religion is a sin......i don't know about you, but that's pretty ironic to me.

& is the reason why people didn't vote for Adam is becuase he's gay or bisexual? (btw, it's also a sin to judge someone by their sex)

it's a freaking singing competition, not a WHO-IS-STRAIGHT competion or a WHO-IS-MORE-FAITHFUL-TO-GOD competition. Apparantly Americans don't understand that statement. no offence.

me & my dad had a whole argument about this right after the finale. And believe me, there was a whole lot of screaming... anywho, my dad was telling me since last week that Kris would win for sure......he said that if it was really a singing competition adam would win..... but since it's a popularity contest Kris is a sure win. He says the title of the show (AMERICAN IDOL) pretty much has popularity written all over it, so this tells him it's a popularity contest and that Kris would obviously win...cuz no one votes for a gay person, no one votes for a bisexual, people tend to vote for the good guy....blah blah blah... i love my dad, but I BEG TO DIFFER!!!!!!!!!! It's a singing competition!!!!!!! how many times am i suppose to say that to make it clear?!?!?! so what if the title makes it sound like a popularity contest?....if it was then singing wouldn't be the only talent they would take in! It just seems like a popularity contest becasue people who vote don't base it anymore in singing. they base it on other things!!!!!!!!!! christianity, cuteness, gender, clothing, attitude...and so on...& So what if Adam is gay or bi ? what's wrong with that ?.... i love gay people, they are fun to be with! wth, honestly.............. America can suck my .... i will not finish that sentence....becuz of i do, i might be kicked out of blogger.

Anywho, this is making me mad...... this relates to the whole TO KILL A MOCKING BIRD thing.... i'm gonna have test about it on friday, so this is just perfect. the JURY represent the voters...... the JUDGE represent the judges....TOM ROBINSON represents Adam.....& MR. EWELL represents Kris....the jury charged tom guilty of raping mr. ewell's daughter.... even though he clearly didnt do it! do you know why they charged him guilty???....it was because tom was black and mr. ewell was white... DISCRIMINATION is what it is.... People didn't vote for Adam cuz of his gender, people charged Tom guilty cuz he's black........this is pretty disappointing.

People don't know it..... but the world now revovles on discrimination, judgement, unaccpetance and hatred. People dnt realize it cuz it's masked by a very believable bootleg version of reality..... But you know what, there can't be only one reality..... People have to change this.....cuz nothing's gonna go the right way if this continues....

WOOOOOOW, i was way off topic there..... from american idol to to killl a mocking bird, to reality.......
well, in a way, they all connect to each other...

anyway, i have to sleep & pretend that Adam losing was just a dream.


ILY, ADAM LAMBERT ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

dress.

hey you guys!

i got my dress for confirmation !.....
im not very happy about it tho... cuz Steffi isn't wearing a dress & im gonna look like a big idiot.
& i have to wear HIGHT HEELS.
someone teach me how to walk in them....cuz i WILL fall on my face.
i got it at le chateau....i wanted to buy one at XXI, but there was no good size for me...
OR it's too long, OR it's too short.

anywho,
i finally found a website i can my poems in!!!!!!!
the website is actually meant for stories, but it accepts poems too.
no one i know has an account for that website, (except for my bestfriend)
so that's good.
i dont really wanna tell you guys what the website is, cuz ..........
i kindah want privacy.
but if you're presistant to read my poems.....
just ask me.....it depends on who you are tho =)
but, believe me......
they are not that good...
i might write a story too
but it'll prolly suck.

so excitedf or OTTAWA..
but i can feel the drama boiling
about the rooms.....
i dnt really care tho.
i dont mind who i'm in a room with...
as long as they don;t wake me up in the middle of the night OR
do pranks on me....
cuz i will be so pissed.
i HATE it when ppl wake me up in the during my deep sleep.

anywho, i wanna sleep now...
bye.

all up in my face.

AGH,
so, a couple of days ago, my privacy was invaded.

~I tell people what i want them to know.... like how i write stuff in this blog.
i tell my friends what i want them to know.
but there are things i'd rather keep to myself.
I might sound really weird, but everyone has something about them or about their lives that are better kept to themselves.

When i know something is wrong with someone or something is bugging them...i ask them...cuz i wanna know. But if they say, " i can't tell you" OR " i'd rather not talk about it " i leave them alone cuz i know how they feel.

I might seem like a person who is very open & isnt afraid to tell everyone about her personal & private life. But believe it or not, i have things that NO ONE IN THE WORLD KNOWS, except for myself. that might seem very emotastic, sentimental, & weird.... but it's true. Don't even lie to yourself and say you don't have a secret kept only between you and yourself.....cuz everyone must have one.

anyway, i hate it when people are ALL UP IN MY FACE, asking me about my personal life and not stopping about it. And when they finally find out or assume what it is, they tell everyone without even confirming with me if it's true or not and without asking permission if they can tell everyone they speak to.

as of now, life is a shitwad in a dumpster.