Monday, March 28, 2011

GOOD RIDDANCE.

OMG i am so over your shit.
What the hell did i do to you?...
honestly, i'm so glad you are moving schools.
I hope you get someone pregnant and ruin your life.
fuck you.
I honestly don't give a shit if any of your friends see this...
i'm gonna try not to say your name.. but it's pretty obvious who i'm talking about.
your ugly ass self.
f'real.
Don't go calling me stupid and shit. like honestly.
I'm so happy that you're going away...
that way, i don't have to see your fugly face every fucking day.
please please don't come back.
i don't need you
and i never did.
i thought i did cuz i was one stupid bitch...
I have to admit that i did somewhat "love" you.
but you know what...
i really take that love back.
I never keep grudges....
but you are a special one....
i fucking hate your guts.
i honestly wanna kill you.
UGH.
We will never ever be friends again
ever.
I'm gonna ruin your life.
like you ruined mine.
okay, maybe i didn't mean all of the shit i said in this post.
but i'm venting.
maybe i odn't hate you completely...
but i do for now.
I NEED AN APOLOGY FOR FUCK'S SAKE.
but until then.
go fuck yourself.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

100 random facts,

1. My nickname is SAM. <--- Selene Alejo Martinez you see what my parents did there?
2. I was born in the Philippines...and lived there until i was 9.
3. I have an older sister.
4. 5 feet exact, beetch.
5. i hate it when people wiggle their toes. it's freaking gross, bro.
6. i love eating.
7. i have a habit of napping after school. it ain't good ):
8. i hate cinnamon. it gives me a headache.
9. chocolate is my life.
10. love my friends.
11. i love hugs. if i could give them to everyone i see, i would. but that would be creepy.
12. i'm scared of relationships...so uhmm...i'm avoid them as much as possible.
13. i really do think i'm a loner. ahaha.
14. i like the colour red. i've liked it since grade 3 cuz my teacher told me it's the colour of the heart ;)
15. if i say i love someone, i really do mean it.
16. i hate math. it drives me craazzy.
17. i have the lowest self-esteem ever.
18. i love my parents.
19. i've smoked before...just one puff...
20. i looove babies. i want one. but like, i don't wanna give birth to one haha
21. i want a puppy.
22. i try to sing, but it never sounds as good as i want it to ;/
23. i think i can cook...
24. i'm in the IB program. but i'm not a genius. quite the opposite actually.
25. my sister says i act black. that racist bitch. lol kidding.
26. ^ i love my sister. i love pissing her off (:
27. i don't have a bestfriend.
28. i COULD be a bitch if i wanted to, but i choose not to.
29. in pre-school, there was a boy who liked me...but i HATED him. now he's a celebrity. smh LOL
30. i hate it when random people ask me for money. I DON'T KNOW YOU.
31. i'm a virgin.
32. i want a gay friend sooo bad.
33. i HAVE a type in guys. uhhmm...it's really sad LOL
34. i don't like liars
35. i don't like people who break promises.
36. i cannot not forgive someone. does that make sense? well, i can't hold a grudge at all. im too soft for it.
37. ^ therefore if i don't talk to you it means i'm shy, it's awkward for some reason, or i think you don't like me..NOT CUZ I'M HOLDING A GRUDGE ON YOU.
38. honeydew bubbletea yum.
39. i love poutine
40. i'm really cheap. no, i'm thrifty. i am really careful with my money.
41. i really like butter. it just makes everything scrumdilliyum.
42. i'm STILL unsure of what i'm gonna be when i grow up
43. i write poems. kindah lame. but yeah.
44. my greatest fear is the dark.
45. ^ next to that is failure and rejection
46. i don't understand vegetarians
47. i'm really shy, but if you get to know me better...i'm pretty much a lunatic
48. i wanna go clubbing when i turn 19.
49. i've drank before...wasn't that great.
50. i'm such a slacker.
51. i hate not being appreciated.
52. my birthday is on the first day of September.
53. i made this blog in 2008
54. my first crush was captain planet. go search him up. he's one sexy beast LOL
55. i used to be in love with Harry Potter
56. i've only had one phone ever in my life that is truly brand-new. the rest were hand-me-downs
57. i don't like shopping with other people. it's supposed to be my ALONE time when i shop :P
58. my celebrity crush (asian) is Aiden Lee Donghae. search him up.
59. i fall in love easily.
60. i'm gonna be 16 this year.
61. i am insecure, like really insecure.
62. i hate being alone.
63. i like writing.
64. i used to be obsessed with anime. i guess it was just a phase.
65. i've watched porn. it was by accident and i will NEVER get my innocence back ):
66. i cry when i lose things. LOL
67. i never cry infront of people. i wait until i'm completely alone...then burst into tears.
68. i'm a hopeless romantic.
69. 40% of the songs on my mp3 are sexual songs LOL
70. ^ i put that fact there cuz it's #69 ;)
71. i'm running out of facts.
72. My favourite kind of cheese is BRIE.
73. i hate disappointing people that expect so much from me..
74. i believe in God. he's my homeboy.
75. twitter is my #1 textmate
76. i'm currently getting a 63% in math.
77. ^ i'm getting a 97% in french! TRES BIEN, BITCH!
78. i was obsessed with Chris Brown. like i wanted to marry him, f'reeal.
79. i love my friends and i will do anything for the ones that are most special to me.
80. i have secrets that i haven't told anyone ever ever ever. ha ha
81. i had a huge pre-demi lovato gap when i was younger. it was hideous
82. i think that older underwear are more comfortable
83. i want to learn how to speak spanish. it's so sexy.
84. me and my fam have conversations about what we're gonna do if we win the lottery. haha
85. i swear a looot when i get mad.
86. i'm scared of the girls at my school. they all seem so superior O.O
87. i like cheeseburgers.
88. i don't get mad easily.
89. i used to pretend i had a guardian angel...maybe i still think so :P
90. i used to talk to myself in the mirror when i have problems that i believe no one would understand. (maybe i still do rofl)
91. i don't think i'm attractive at all. LOL
92. i'm not good with criticism. i take it to heart ):
93. compliments make me happy, even though i have a hard time believing them.
94. i have more than 5 stuffed animals in my bedroom.
95. there is a tv in my bedroom, but it doesn't work =.=
96. my favourite type of pasta is PESTO PASTA. search it up, cuz it's the bomb-diggity.
97. in my freshman year, i hung out with like...6 guys and i was the only girl in our "possy" ROFL...i'm so serious.
98. if i get too stressed...i don't sleep at all....once i didn't sleep for 3 days straight.
99. i have a Harry Potter scar on my forehead... not a lightning bolt, though...it's like a puddle or a poop. OTL
100. i laugh at anything and everything (:

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

What happened?

This entry is to written to my former bestfriend...
Although i know you probably wouldn't be able to read this...
i just don't have the balls to say it to you up front.
plus, i can never get a hold of you anymore.

so uhhmm....
you've changed.
not like you've grown a couple of inches or gotten a boyfriend change...but
more drastic.
On the bus ride to school...in grade 5
we were jamming to Hilary duff songs...
we were stalking our crushes that were 3 years older than us...
you were sleeping over at my house like every week.
we were BEST FRIENDS.
and we were innocent.

i guess I'm still that same loser, but you've clearly moved off of that phase.
As a teenager who has like a million friends (obviously a joke)
the only way i can be updated with your life is through facebook...
and as i go through your profile...
i thought i was reading someone else's statuses and posts...
i mean..
your pictures are...
how do i say this delicately...
promiscuous.
you have your middle finger up..
you show pictures of you smoking...
and other shit that i really can't deal with.
maybe i have no right to tell you to stop, and i get that...
but what the hell happened?...
i feel like if i didn't move to a different school and stayed with you, you wouldn't be so rebellious.
I feel like shit for leaving you.
and now you're a slut. and it's funny cuz you even admit it.
i like being a loser with you..
i hate this selfish, smoker girl who shows off her boobs and ass and middle finger that you've become.
i don't know what else to say.
really.
i miss you, jelly.
please come back.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

nyaaark nyaark nyark (:

is my life really being normal right now?...
I'm just gonna enjoy it while it lasts (: