your loss.

you moved on,
your loss.
you might not know it,
but im the one person that knows you almost more than you kno yourself.
im the only perosn who knows what makes you truly happy.
im the only person that knows the different side of you.
the old you,
the better you.
Im the only person you tld all your hopes an dreams to.
im the only person who truly broke your heart...but didnt really mean it :P
im the only person you talked about the future.
your future,
with me.
OUR future.
im the only one who will truly love you for who you are,
no matter what you do,
what you say,
or
what you turn into.
you moved on,
and you like someone else.
and....well,
that's your loss.

What noooow?!

okay i have a new favourite song! ^.^

it seems kind of...related to some poop that i wanna get over..
but like... it's cute.
and and... OKAY it relates to something.
i thought it would be easy.
but it's not.
i'll try to stop it, but
im not going to deny it.
i miss you.


Like we used to - A rocket to the moon


I could feel his breath as he's sleeping next to me
Sharing pillows and cold feet
He can feel my heart; fell asleep to its beat
Under blankets and warm sheets
If only I could be in that bed again
If only it were me instead of her

Does she watch your favorite movies?
Does she hold you when you cry?
Does she let you tell her all your favorite parts?
When you've seen it a million times
Does she sing to all your music?
While you dance to purple rain
Does she do all these things?
Like I used to?

14 months and 7 days ago,
Oh I know you know how we felt about that night
Just your skin against the window
Oh we took it slow and we both know
It shoulda been me inside that car
It should have been me instead of her in the dark

Does she watch your favorite movies?
Does she hold you when you cry?
Does she let you tell her all your favorite parts?
When you've seen it a million times
Does she sing to all your music?
While you dance to purple rain
Does she do all these things?
Like I used to?

I know that love happens all the time, love
(I'm a sucker for that feeling)
You're on my mind, love
(I always end up feeling cheated)
And that happens all the time, love
(Oh darling, I know I'm not needed)

Will she love you like I loved you?
Will she tell you everyday?
Will she make you feel like your invincible
With every word she'll say
Can you promise me that this was right?
Don't throw it all away
Can you do all these things?
Will you do all these things?
Like we used to

Oh like we used to

i try.

okay guys.
im not perfect....
i try to be the best person i can be.

sometimes i try to be a nice person to ONE person...
and turn out to be mean to another.
it's hard >.<

gaaaaaaaaaaahhh,
i really dont kno how to fix this mistake.
i should say sorry
i should.

but honestly, im not all that good at confrontation.
it will probably take me a week to figure out what to say, plan it, and memorize it.
then when im finally ready to "confront"....
i forget everything and end up saying different things that dont make sense...
and then i totally mess up.


i wanna say im sorry,
but im afraid you'll just ignore it.
Actually i shouldnt even care about that.
i promise.
tomorrow.
im will go up to you and say sorry.
(=

worst day of my life.

BOO.
so yesterday...
APRIL 6th was by far the worst day of the year so far...maybe even my life.
ugggh, lemme tell u what happened.

so i woke up 30 minutes later than usual... which gave me little time to get ready for school..
and so i skipped breakfast and blow-drying my hair.
i missed my bus...and had to wait for about 20 mins for another one.
when i finally got on the bus, my bra unhooked -.-
and for the rest of the ride... my TA-TAS were just there..
and i had to walk to school... with frizzy hair, and an unhooked bra. GREAT.
i felt very uncomfortable.
when i got to school, i was about to finish my science homework...
but then i realized that i left my whole pencil case at home.
THANKFULLY, my friend let me borrow her pencil for the whole day (=
then first period...my average went down by 6 points -.-
GAAAH, stupid teacher.
second period...which is gym...
i bruised my ALREADY BRUISED KNEE.
ouch.
3rd period....our teacher changed our seating arrangement and im sitting near the most boring people EVER.
Lunch... i had nothing to eat.. and i was just sitting there looking like a sick fool.
last but not the least.....LAST period..
i thik last period always makes me pissed off...
just cuz...but yesterday was especially stupid cuz stupid people were trying to freaking feel me up -.-
honestly.. get a life.
UGH, then afterschool.... my head hurt...
so i took a nap.
later that night.... i couldnt sleep at all..
it was 1:30am and i was still awake.
i went to the living room to try and sleep there...i slept for like 2 hours, then my dad wakes me up >.<
i went back to my sister's room and tried to sleep there.....but nothing...
i stared at the ceiling until it was 5am...
after that i just got up and ate breakfast...while everyone in my house was asleep...





>.<





bad days,,, i despise them.
the only good thing about them is that they make me look forward to tomorrow.