THE BEST.

HII.... i just came from my volleyball tournament today.... i thought i would be like awesome at it, but as it turns out... i actually suck.

what's it like to be THE BEST at something ?

i was never really the best at something EVER...in my life...
singing, c'mon......anyone can si ng better thn me.
basketball, i can only shoot and play defense..but never offense.
soccer, I SUCK.
volleyball, this was the only sport i thought i was really good at... but it turns out im not.

i try to look for somehitng worth trying for.. worth working hard for.. but wen i do.. i find out someoneelse was better or someone had something i didnt. like HEIGHT, EARLY TRAINING, etc.

maybe someday, ill be the best at something...
someday, maybe i CAN be the best at volleyball, soccer, or basketball.
maybe i just have to believe.

HELP !

okay, so i haven't talked in a while. )= i have a a lot of problems and CRAP like that. School started. Halloween a dumb. the guy i like doesnt know i exist. i suck at volleyball & basketball. AND im sortah failing.

okay so staring with school....
school has been such a BUM to me. we have all these kinds of homework and we have really short due dates ! we have SHAKESPEARE, HISTORY, SCIENCE, GEOGRAPHY, MATH, and so much more. im beat. grade 8 sucks riite now. i have no idea why all the grade niners rite now say grade eight is the best year in elementary ever.... they're soooooooo wrong !

Halloween was soooooo DUMB. we had a dance and it a was a TOTAL failure. not much ppl slow danced. and it wasnt that long.. it was ghay. oh, nd also this girl... Andy, was flisrting with the guy i like, wally. eerrggh.... so frustrating. but he's outtah my league anyway.

so, wally. he's not yer typical STUNNER, but he's alright. sometimes ppl say he likes me, but i dont think so. wutever. too much girls are all over him.... there's Andy, Anne, Bianca R. , and so much more. im not even sure if i like him amynore.

volleyball & basketball are ghay rite now. i cant play anymore ! ... before i used do AWESOME things, but i suck now )= .... oh well...

im failing things... well, not reslly failing but i havent been handing in my assingments in time. i get 2% off everyday that u dont give back my assignments after the due date .......OMG.
the report cardds are coming in like 2 weeks... and there's a dance project trw ! ...and m group didnt even practise yet.... EEEEEEEEKKK....




HELP!

SM AUDITIONS.

heyyy...
it's been such a long time since i wrote here.
well... yeah.. school was in my damn way (=
This year my mind as invaded by asians...
i started liking DBSK , SUPER JUNIOR, WONDERGIRLS, and SHINEE
and on OCTOBER 18 2008
there's gonna be auditions in toronto so their record label !!!
when my sister told me, i wasl ike " can i audition too?"
sooo yaaah... i mite audition...
sooo any of you people who are ASIAN
and are good at singing, dancing, song writing, modeling or acting,
audition too !!!
just search " SM AUDITIONS" in google
and ull see the deets.
anyway... byeeee !

Human Papiloma Virus...

OMG.....my school is offering HPV vaccine ....

and im not getting it...
my mom said i was too young and it's only caused by having sex.... which i will not have until im MARRIED ! ...
becuz im NOT a whore.

i mean im only in grade eight maaan.
The legal age to have sex ....errr...... INTERCOURSE
in canada is 13 ....

WTF ?!?!?!?!
maybe thts why a lot of girls get pregnant these days...
i swear i thot it was like 18 or something.
they should change that.
DAAAYYUUUMM....

im now legal to have intercourse since im thirteen ??

tht so disturbing to me =S

my friends are getting it.
WHY??

i mean they should get it if theyre gnna have SEXUAL INTERCOURSE with their boyfriends... which i doubt cuz the guys in my school didnt finish puberty yet.

LAAWL.

well, im not getting the shot cuz im not gnna get the virus for sure..
i mean ... im not gnna be stupid and have sex with dumbasses.

it's natural to kiss, but not more than tht .

so, if i havent even had my first kiss yet, then im not gnna have sex (=

so yahh... i'll have to skip on this one (=

anyway, i have to do my homework.

BUH-BYE (=

THUR-EEEEEN baby!

Party over here! Party over there!

LOL... sorry.. it's just tht it's Sept. 1 !!!!
and it's my birthday !! YAY!

soooo, im thirteen now . more privillages, more stuff, more FREEDOM.
tomorrow is the first day of school.... DAYYUM.
summer went hella fast.

i got some of the things i wanted and i got A LOT of money (=

i swear, i never knew 50 dollar bills existed.
i never even knew they were RED.

i havent gotten my gift from my parents yet..... cuz they have been busy trying to throw that humungus FAM JAM just so we can celebrate my bday and my sister's bday.
they said im getting my girft later this day.

and also STEFFI ! ... she's gonna give me a gift later today too...
daaaaaaaaarrrn... i have to find out what she wants for her bday....
but her birthday is in december....so i have a lot of time.
anyway.... imma enjoy the rest of my day by watching the free GMA channel on my TV..


BYE !

What was i thinking ?... O_o

OMG!
I wrote A LOT about this guy on my blog and i apparently liked him and i kind of just noticed that,
WHAT DA HELL WAS I THINKING?!?!?!
i mean, holy crap....
Sorry, but every girl has been trying to get his attention by doing stupid stuff... and i realized i was one smile away from doing tht. Every dang girl is like mentioning him in their pics, flirting with him, and craap like that just so they can get the tingly feeling in their tummies when he replies.... i say BULLSHIT !
what's the point of getting that feeling when he doesnt get that feeling back wen you try and talk to him ? well, no one for sure knows if he gets that feeling for a certain girl, but still. If he does, then lucky for that girl! but i doubt it. i think he's gay (=
Which is sort of a good thing since i really badly want a gay friend... but we're not exactly FRIENDS. We're more like ...... residents of the same country -_-
but whatever. so i kind of think of myself as STUPID. cuz liking him was such a dang waste of time... i swear.
i cuddah liked other guys who actually liked me back (=
or guys who arent such hearthrobs... but thts impossible.
well, yah... i like him still just a little bit. probably like 2 out of 10.
but im gonna for sure move on.




with the help of this guy,
ofcourse (^_^)

oh and he's mine (=

Delete 08.18.08

you're like an old picture,
that i didn't want to capture.
you're like a mistake,
or maybe a fake.

you're like a virus,
you make me so delirious.
you're like a bad song,
every lyric is wrong.

you're like a missed call,
or a flat ball.
an old shoe,
what do you want me to do ?

go away, get gone,
go all the way to krypton.
everything about you I'll have to delete,
but I'll always be incomplete.

Birthday list ! (what to get me...)

Okay, you guys !

My birthday is coming up in 21 days ! ...

So, that's 3 weekends to get me a present (= hehehe

but since i havent been spcific on what i want for my birthday, here's a list .... but i must warn you ... i dnt need ALL of the things on this list...it doesnt matter what you get me, just that it came from YOU makes me happy....

here we go:

1. Shirts or sweaters, sizes : M or L cuuz i want loose clothing (=
2. Pants or sweatpants, sizes : 3-5 ... yah i kno, im fat SO SHUT UP
3. Ben Barnes Pillow, you can get it from disney store, but it's freaaaaking expensive... so i doubt you'll get it
4. Digi camera. nothing spcific.. just something like a black samsung one with 7.2 megapixels, 3x optical zoom, and face detection technology. and to give you a hint, maybe look for it in FUTURESHOP.
5. CellPhone. nohting spcific, and i mean it. i just want one thts kind of like the one i broke. cuz i loved tht one

6. Harry Potter 3,5,6 (books)

7. Fantastic Beasts & Where to find them, by J.K Rowling (book)

8. Quidditch Through the Ages, by J.K Rowling (book)

9. Harry Potter 3 & 5 (movies, HD DVD)

10. Converese shoes, high-cut, single OR double tongue, colourful, and size 4 for men and size 6 for women.

11. Any Disney movies (HD DVD)

12. earrings : dangling, hoop, or stud, ANY would do. colourful and it has to be something I would wear. Hoops can't be too big, and danlings cant be too long(=

13. And if everything fails, and you don't have any money to afford any of these things.... atleast give me a HUG

I'll want a hug too if you actually got me something.

My Birthday is on September 1

AND dont forget that. LMAO.... im kidding...

ily <3>

ENJOY (=

heyy you guys....
just so you know... it's national i love you day <3

today i was suppose to get the "I LOVE YOU" of my life, but istead...
i got an "IDON'T"


well, i give up... just to tell you guys.
im gonna rip everything off my mirror,
take my teddy bear's shirt off,
take all the memories in my head,
and throw them away.

i have to move on now. i can't stay and bathe myself in pain anymore. i waited so long, but i got nothing. I wasted BLOOD, and SWEAT, and TEARS. i can't ever do that again. i can't waste anymore of my life just to get nothing.

all i can say is FUCK YOU.

Right now, i kind of hate you to death. I hope you die, then rott, then get thrown away, and burn in hell.

i hope you know i loved you to death. and i'm gonna throw all of that away.

tomorrow, ill fucking pretend likenothing happened, like i never even knew you, like i didn't love you. you know why ?

thts because

I.M.

S.O.

O.V.E.R.

Y.O.U.

But you left a hole in my heart,

you'll always be inside me.

Just for now,

bye.

This inspired by my friend's situation. NOT ME.... just to tell you, i still like the person i like ryt now... so dnt worry (=

Soft cookies.....

Today was pretty much like any day..... Since my phone broke, i'm now using my old one >_<
it's so fat )= but then again it's all i've got ...

My sister and i made cookies today (= uhhmmm i think they were called soft chocolate chip oatmeal cookies..

they were pretty good ... but they kind of gave me a little tummy ache....cuz it reminded me of someone i didnt want to remember....someone who absolutely loved soft cookies... i wonder if this means i miss him...
i wonder if this means i still care... I tried to forget about everything... even the loss of my phone helped, but i guess it wasn't enough...

All of this is making me feel so depressed and uneasy... especially after watching BOKURA GA ITA .

but ... it 's hard liking someone who doesn't like you back.
it's hard to care for someone who barely knows you.

my heart is saying, " Just wait...he'll like you and tel you rite away."
but my mind is saying, " stop waiting, it's not worth it. you can spend the time yer wasting rite now with someone else that actually likes you back!"

it's hard to decide which one to follow. im torn.
Pretty weird, huh?
you must think im a total loser for typing all my feelings out on the computer for everyone to se... >_<
...oh well....
it's hard to imgine how all of this is caused by only
soft cookies.

Goodbye...my good friend

Sometimes...things have to end even though you don't want it to.. Recently, i just lost my beloved friend.....

Well, it was a friend, and companion, a loving device... i broke my phone.

All my memories were basically in there... and there was a picture there that i wanted to delete...but i never did.... and now it's pretty much gone forever... Stupid water... why do you have to be so CRUEL ?

I was swimming and my awesome phone was lying there on my towel...Then stupid children (my age by the way) were playing with water...and they spalshed on my phone... they didnt tell me O_o they should've....

My phone could be fine by now if they told me earlier... BUT NOOOOOOOOO....they had to keep it as a secret so that i wouldn't get mad....We'll im far off from being mad.. im

FURIOUS!

I found out my phone was wet when i stopped swimming. Which wasl ike 1 hour after... my phone was still working, but it turned off even though i charged it all night and even though i never turned it off my self.... it was kind of ODD...

atleast it was working right? WRONG!

When i got home, it never worked again... I'm pretty sad right now...

My mom gave that phone to me on my birthday last year ...from that Philippines...

It was like pretty much the cheapest one -_-

but it has done a whole lot for me .... From calling my crush, to taking a picture of the greatest day EVER...

Well, things have to end .... but after something ends.... something has to begin...

i'll miss you phone

i huff and i puff....

okay so today my plan was to sleep until noon, and just be a lazy bumhead .... BUT NOOOO ! .... the world just has to do stuff that pisses you off -_-

Well... i pulled out of bed by my father at frikin' 7:30 am. and do you know why ?!?!?!?!..... because he wanted me to be his trainer for the week... he wanted to jog around the track at out school... i can think of a million reasons why I shouldnt be his trainer... First of all, i'm a frikin' bigger couch potato than he is.. how can i TRAIN him when im the one who needs training ? Second, i dont jog... i mean for heavens sake.. i tried with my friends and we basically FAILED ... what do you think will happen ? ... Third, i sleep very late as eveyone knows.. im almost a teenager and i dont really have a specific bedtime... i only know when to sleep when my mom gets really mad and shouts (= So...my dad and i, jogged like 4 times around that track which is 800 metres and we walked home... i'm freakin' exhausted... well.. im going shopping now (= im not too tired for a new shirt (=


byezz !

SURVEY ! ...braap braaaaap (Y)

1. Would you rather hang out with a group of guys or girls?
~hhhmmnn... both i guess
.
2. If you could change your age, how old would you make yourself?
~8.... good times
.
3. How many TRUE best friends do you have?
~ALOT
.
4. If the world ended right now, And you could choose one person to stay with you, who would you pick?
~well. i guess if the world is about to end then i'd pick... a TREE
.
5. Are you taken?
~nooope
.
6. What do you think about politics?
~it's very very unfair...
.
7. Would you let your gf/bf put makeup on you?
~first of all... i dnt have one and second.... if i ever had one NO
.
8. On a scale of 1-10 what would you rate your life?
~8.8 hehehe
.
9. Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
~cheeyeah
.
10. Where do you see yourself working in 5 years?
~probably in university.... ya kno A+ in repot cards (=
.
11. Have you ever thought of suicide?
~wtf?.. sorry, i love life
.
12. How many times have you been back stabbed?
~about .... A LOT
.
13. Do you have a crush on someone special?
~i unno
.
14. Are you independent or dependent?
~bit of both...
.
15. If you could put your life in a category, what would you put it in?
~AHA, middle class
.
16. Are you in love right now?
~not anymore ;)
.
17. How many animals do you have?
~none...
.
18. Are you popular?
~no idea...
.
19. Where were you born?
~Medical City, Mandaluyong
.
20. Do you love your life?
~ohhhhh yeeaaahhh
.
21. Was this survey enjoyable?
~hmmnnn... i'll give a 8 out of 10 (=

funny in my tummy...

Hello and goodmorning to all of you guys bored out of yer head ...

okhay.. i guess there was a response to my first blog.... uhmmm ... my friend

www.slickchild.blogspot.com made a pretty good point.. (sortah)

well... yah anywayzz.. today im going to STC [Scarborough Town Centre] with my friends louise, steffi, nathalie, and joanne.. YAY ! ... omg i miss nathalie and joanne ... me, louise and steffi have been hanging out lately... well just yesterday, we attempted to jog in the morning at our school's track... basically ... we FAILED ...hehehehehe.. well .. i guess i did .. (=

Louise ran... and me and steffi were begging her to stop & go home. it was pretty exhausting. but then again i think i lost like 2 pounds out if it (=

okaaay....
TTYL ... byee !

Nevermind...

i knew this would happen...
it just seems like im wasting my time for something i wud never ever have.
if i tell you this you'll probably say it's my fault...
Fine.
i admit it's my fault.
so i guess i have to apologize.

.....i'm sorry, i didnt tell you earlier

i'm sorry, my friend had to tell you for me

.....i'm sorry, i didnt do anyting about it

i'm sorry, i never talked to you

.....i'm sorry, for ditching you

i'm sorry, i lied to you

.....i'm sorry, i never invited you

i'm sorry, for being a bitch

.....i'm sorry, for making you laugh

i'm sorry, i looked at you

.....i'm sorry, i made you smile

i'm sorry, i asked you to make me laugh

.....i'm sorry, FOR EVERYTHING


but most of all...

i'm sorry, i love you <3

NOOO!

Well, today is pretty much gonna be a horrible day )=

not really horrible, but not as fun.. because im SICK !
i really wanted to hang out with my friends today but my sickness got in the way.. and it's raining ...
I have nothing to do today, and im not even suppose to be on the computer right now because it's gnna make my head hurt. But what's a girl to do ? Anywayzz... All im probably gonna do is sleep and eat today..
Maybe i could make my 5 facts video....

hmmnnn... well yahh ! I have a YOUTUBE account (= my awesome friend steffi tagged me to make a 5 facts video... so yah .. ill try to make tht today .. since i have nothing else to do ... so if you guys read this and you're probably as bored as me .. then here's my account :

samalicious143

it mite not be finished today .. but i have one video there. It's pretty gay tho. But yah .. ill try to finish it (=

BYE ! ...

Maybe ... just maybe

Soo...

Today... I talked to the guy i like..
I never talked to him in like .. a couple of months ;) cuz i was too shy

And maybe, just maybe, he likes me back..

im not sure about it tho... cuz you can't really tell what guys are feeling, but yeah .. Im pretty much making this quick so it wudnt be July 23.. yet .. so yeaahhh byee !
good night peepolz !!! byee !

PS

i hope he does <3

Not a hater, just not a fan...

Hmmnn.... nothing to talk about today really ....

The past few days i've been listening to Miley Cyrus' new song 7 things. I've been kindah singing along and like holding the brush and pretending it's a microphone.... I know im lame .. but just to be brutally honest.... That's the only song i like from all of her other songs... Cuz the other ones are like bubblegum pop.. and this one is kind of ROCK (= Yet, my sister thinks that Miley is tryin' to be Avril Lavigne.... i sort of agree but yeeaahh ...

and i heard that her song 7 things was dedicated to Nick Jonas... her late boyfriend... they weren't good together anywayss... (=

And yeeaahh.. im not reaally surre why Miley Cyrus is famous. I think it's cuz her dad WAS famous.. but her dad only had one hit .. he was basically a one hit wonder back in his days... and he got the one hit thing from his song MY ACHY BREAKY HEART .... So yeeeahhh.... She's not really good at singing..she's okay.. and she kind of sucks at acting... cuz she over reacts... but yeeahh over all i think she's just gonna be one those disney teens that messes up. Like Britney Spears, Vanessa Hudgens, and Jamie Lynn Spears anywayzz....

Since i really bored..
and i really like the song, here's the lyrics :

7 things


I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared
It was awesome, but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
And nothing's ever gonna change until you hear
My dear

The seven things I hate about you
The seven things I hate about you
Oh, you
You're vain
Your games
You're insecure
You love me, you like her
You made me laugh, you made me cry, I don't know which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks, and when you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be
With the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward And it's silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it
I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not coming back
You're taking seven steps here

The seven things I hate about you
You're vain
Your games
You're insecure
You love me, you like her
You made me laugh, you made me cry, I don't know which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks, and when you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be
With the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

Compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention
The seven that I like

The seven things I like about you
Your hair
Your eyes
Your old Levi's
When we kiss, I'm hypnotized
You made me laugh, you made me cry, but I guess that's both that I'll have to buy
Your hand in mine when we're intertwined, everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you

Shy, shy
You do, oh
Ooh
Ooh
Ooh
Ooh

EXPOSED ???

ohmigawsh !
Well, me and friend my Louise went to the park and we were talking about .... THINGS
then i shouted out something no one was suppose to hear, and well people from my school heard it O_o
I was so scared ! i swear ! But the day turned out pretty good (=
I found out about how this guy used to stare at me at random times of the day and just smile ....

isn't that CUTE ?? yah well... it is for me (=

Oh well, i guess thats all that happened today ....

not reely interesting but yeeeaaahhh.....
anywayzz... i have to go talk to my friends in MSN ...

byee !

Summer is a bummer...

It's summer ! ... no
WOW...i was waiting for summer everyday in school, yet all it has done to me is bore me to death. You don't see your friends, youcan't break the rules, and you're stuck at home ! Well, im not really stuck at home though.... i can go to my friends' houses. Like steffi and , michelle, and theres always brian who is just a block away from me. But i have no energy at all to walk there or to call them. i'm a lazy bum... The only excercise i get is wen i run around the house for the following reasons:

*to pee
*to eat
*to watch my favourite tv show
*to get the phone
* to respond to my mom's call
*to run away from the dark
*to get the door
*and more...

It's pretty gay actaully... I have no intention of excercising... unless it's with friends (=

You know what's ironic?? i haven't gone swimming yet... i know it's stupid... but i have no one to go with )= I really wanna go to north york and swim at my friend's apartment building, but everyone's been pretty busy with stuff. So, if anyone wants to hang out with me, my # is ....

LOL... no im not just gnna give out my # like tht.. anywayzz.. but if you know me at all and i know you back... then you shud know my number or someone who knows my number.. then call me and we shud chill sometime (=

arriiiite !! byee !

Boys...the main source of our stupidity and confusion

I'm sorry to inform all the males out there, but it seems that most of my problems are caused by YOU. I'm pretty sure it's the same to all of the girls out there. For sure When a guy sees this blog, they'll imidiately make one of their own about how girls are the cause of their problems. I admit that girls are sometimes confusing, dumb, sarcastic, etc. But guys are so much worse!!!!! And the worst part is, you don't even realize it...IRONIC istn't it ? I've listed the main problems guys give us...(sorry guys)

1. They won't tell you if they like you ... They'll simply wait until you ask, then they'll chicken out. I think this is because they're not sure if we like them back. Especially beacuse sometimes girls help their friends hook up with some guys, and the first thing that they do is ask the guy who he likes. But seroiusly guys, you're suppose to tough and all that shiiit. so why can't you just tell the girl you like them or not ? That way maybe they'll reward your bravery of actually standing up and telling them the truth.

2. They think showing-off will attract girls ... WTF ?!?!?!? Okay, maybe sometimes girls say they like a celebrity because of his looks and how buff he is or how he's good at something, but we only do that because we don't really know the guy personally and it's pretty obvious that we won't be able to actually hang-out with them. It's basically our fantasy, and it's totally different from our reality. If you show your true colours to a girl, they might actaully fall for you pretty badly, just be yourself (=

3. They comment about our appearances ... first of all, SHUT UP! You guys are the main reason why girls try to be skinnier, prettier, sexier, etc. and it's pretty sickening. And what is it about the word SEXY ? and HOT? I mean sure we say it, but you guys describe it and it makes us think that we have to look like that to attcrat you. If you like someone, it's suppose to be BEYOND looks and appearance.

4. They depend on girls too much ... We're not robots you know. We can't be perfect for you all the time, and we can't do everyting you want us to do. We can't look like frikin' Megan Fox, GAWSH! And you can't expect us to tell you we like you. That isn't always the case. For many years, guys were the ones expressing their feelings and courting girls, and i don't think girls want that to change. It's basically your job to make the first move. But sometimes, we like someone else or we're just not ready yet. We're sorry if this happens. Life is just like that. You get accepted and you get rejected.

5. Last but the least, they lie ... I'm sorry, but girls aren't as stupid as you think, OKAY?!?! We know when you're lying and we know when you're pretending. Sometimes girls fall for it when you're really good, but sometimes it just seems like we fall for it , but we're just hiding our emotions. We hate to think that you guys are cheating, lying, and pretending. We try to look at the bright side as much as possible.


Okay, so guys... I know i'm pretty much just one of the girls who are complaining about you and yeah for sure I'm the one to talk because i have no boy experience what so ever (i get most of my stuff from friend experiences), but all i'm doing to trying to tell you what turns girls off... It will come pretty handy when you try and get a girl of your own or try and keep the one you have now. Be yourself (=