party over here!!
party over there!
PARTY EVERYWHERE!...
it has only been like.... a week of summer, but it's been hella busy for me.
22nd : we had the grad lunch.... it was too fun. read my last blog & you'll find out what happened, if you don't already know.
23rd : boys raded my house. not mentioning any names here..... but there was three of them... one them was VERY TALL, the other one had a nice BELLY, and the last one was VERY CHINK. lool, they raded my room as well as my friend's. it was kind of weird having boys in my room. especially wen it was all messy and.... you don't wanna know.
24th : we went to the mall!.... all 15 of us! ... 3 of which watched tansformers 2... and the rest watched HANGOVER.....i gottah say, hangover was pretty HILARIOUS. The reviews all said it was "offending" and all that crap, but i found it very amusing. we obviously had bubble tea...then i went home....i got home and i had to get ready for my sister's graduation. i thought it would be boring. but it was funny!..... 2 people tripped on stage....including my sister....LOL.....but then there's bad news. at that same day, MICHAEL JACKSON died. rest in peace MJ. i actually still can't believe it. but anyway, i hope he's watching over all of us who look up to him.
25th : i went back to school... cuz it's the last day for everyone elses that's not in grade 8. i got my report card, my ATHLETIC AWARD....& yes i put that on capitals because i am very proud that i get an award on something i almost absolutely despise, and i got to say BYE to everyone. then me and some friends went home at around lunch...we watched the grudge 3...it was so scary!...bu i had a great time. then i went to my other friend's house and played rockband. after that... another friend invited us to go to his place cuz he has a swimming pool. no one could really refuse to that offer, cuz it was blazing hot that day.... so we went swimming. it was hella FUN.
26th : GRAAAD PAAARTTTYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!! ... lol.... it was too fun. water fight, good food, twister, truth or dare, dare or dare, truth or truth, the movie.... and dancing.... it was all too fun. i can't exactly explain everything tht happened cuz it was all a blur now. it was too fun.. i think i got drunk from FUN.... and now i have a really bad hangover, tht i can't remember it clearly. i got a hug from... people. lol, yesh...that i DO remember... and i blushed like a little tomato. maaan, ill miss all of this.
ill update if anything else happens. bye bye, for now.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Monday, June 22, 2009
Last daaaaance.
well, we had our grad lunch today.... it was basically a lunch and a dance in a rented room.
the dance floor was pretty small, but there wasn't a time where every grade 8 was in it.... so i guess it was just the right size of dance floor for us....It was pretty dead at first, but then SLOW songs began to play & i had the chance to dance with one of my best guy friends :) you know who you are.
it was our last dance... so i danced with like.... 5 guys. & no it didn't include him.
cuz i kindah promised someone that i would try to get over him.....but it would've been nice if we had that one last dance....
After all the dancing...the DJ recommended everyone to go to the dance floor because it's the last song that he's playing.............all of a sudden the song called "Graduation" by vitamin C was playing. everyone was in a circle on the dance floor. well, ALMOST everyone.
i was alone in a corner. i didn't wanna cry & i know if i join that circle, i woulddah bawled my eyes out.
the song ended and i actually kept my tears from exiting the lower lids of my eyes.
then everyone like came to me and started hugging me and saying, "ill miss you!".... and that's what got me.
the tears that i tired to keep from cascading down my face, flooded my eyes and eventually.... i was FULL-ON CRYING.
I'm usually not the crying type.
i tend to keep my emotions inside....bottle them up so no one can see them.
But then all of that just exploded today.
Every memory,
every failed test,
every smile i gave,
every hug i got,
every fight i fought,
every apology i gave
every time i laughed until my stomach hurt,
& every single time a person tickled my heart,
turned into little droplets of salty fluid that seem to come out from my eyes uncontrollably against my will.
i tried to stop, but the more i fight it, the more tears i cry.
i felt pretty stupid standing on the bus going home, with my eyes bloodshot - red...and tears falling down randomly....
People probably thought i was a mad woman -.-
Walking home was pretty pleasant. i was with 3 awesome ladies. one them left early tho.
I surprisingly stopped crying.
my body probably ran out of tears to dispose.
we ate freezies, and sat near the parking lot of GT and reminisced on our memories together.
How can someone make 50 years worth of memories in only a certain amount of time such as 1 year and a half?......
It's something not even i can explain, but
i do know that they will last a life time. Here in my heart.
ily, forever. <3 i hope noone forgets me. ^_^
the dance floor was pretty small, but there wasn't a time where every grade 8 was in it.... so i guess it was just the right size of dance floor for us....It was pretty dead at first, but then SLOW songs began to play & i had the chance to dance with one of my best guy friends :) you know who you are.
it was our last dance... so i danced with like.... 5 guys. & no it didn't include him.
cuz i kindah promised someone that i would try to get over him.....but it would've been nice if we had that one last dance....
After all the dancing...the DJ recommended everyone to go to the dance floor because it's the last song that he's playing.............all of a sudden the song called "Graduation" by vitamin C was playing. everyone was in a circle on the dance floor. well, ALMOST everyone.
i was alone in a corner. i didn't wanna cry & i know if i join that circle, i woulddah bawled my eyes out.
the song ended and i actually kept my tears from exiting the lower lids of my eyes.
then everyone like came to me and started hugging me and saying, "ill miss you!".... and that's what got me.
the tears that i tired to keep from cascading down my face, flooded my eyes and eventually.... i was FULL-ON CRYING.
I'm usually not the crying type.
i tend to keep my emotions inside....bottle them up so no one can see them.
But then all of that just exploded today.
Every memory,
every failed test,
every smile i gave,
every hug i got,
every fight i fought,
every apology i gave
every time i laughed until my stomach hurt,
& every single time a person tickled my heart,
turned into little droplets of salty fluid that seem to come out from my eyes uncontrollably against my will.
i tried to stop, but the more i fight it, the more tears i cry.
i felt pretty stupid standing on the bus going home, with my eyes bloodshot - red...and tears falling down randomly....
People probably thought i was a mad woman -.-
Walking home was pretty pleasant. i was with 3 awesome ladies. one them left early tho.
I surprisingly stopped crying.
my body probably ran out of tears to dispose.
we ate freezies, and sat near the parking lot of GT and reminisced on our memories together.
How can someone make 50 years worth of memories in only a certain amount of time such as 1 year and a half?......
It's something not even i can explain, but
i do know that they will last a life time. Here in my heart.
ily, forever. <3 i hope noone forgets me. ^_^
Saturday, June 20, 2009
grad 2009
I GRADUATED ! ,
woo hoo !
any who.... lots of things happened & i got exactly what i wanted for grad......
my shoes were killin me
but it's all good.
i got 2 awards.... which were pretty surprising, cuz i suck x)
everyone looked AMAZING.
parents and other family members of the graduates were like PAPARAZZI....
i mean..... camera flashes everywhere you turn.....it'sk indah crazy...
my mouth felt like it was gonna run away from my face that night........
who knew smiling could be so tiring?
if yer in my school....whether you are in my grade or not...
whether i know you or not
whether we hate each other or love each other ...
I'M GONNA MISS YOU.
Saturday, June 6, 2009
na na na boo boo
hi,
well....for the last 3 dasy i've been very very sick...
my mother thought it was SWINE FLU, but it was just ordinary flu.
im so pissed at myself.
Do you guys ever have that feeling when you're mad at yourself for some stupid reason...but at that moment that particular reason is the WORLD to you? that's my deal right now.
im having so much probelms with my life physically, emotionally, mentally, and so on.
PHYSICALLY because....well... im fat. LOL
i even had this dream some night this week that my ass grew bigger than a house -_- wtf...... it's such a pain. why can't i be skinny like them?... wtf do they eat to stay that skinny? .... howcome im like the fatest one here? these are the stupid questions i ask myself all the time. & im really sick of it. whenevr ppl tell me "oh yer not fat!" i respect you & i thank you for saying that, but face it, i AM FAT. it's also one of the reasons i haven't gotten a dress yet for graduation. it's like 12 days from now & i still dont have a damn dress. nothing can hide ALL my imperfections. if there was, it's would be long sleeved & it would be very very very very very long with a mask to go with it cuz my face is an imperfection itself. my height, my weight, my EVERYTHING... just has to go wrong. screw this. i wanna say i dont care, but i care a LOT. i care about this more than my grades .... which might be a problem.
OKAY, cross all of the fat business out.
my emotions are mixed... well.... idc about _____ anymore. wtf, ofcourse i do. but like it seems like i cant anymore. what im trying to say is that.... too much ppl care already & my portion isn't really necessary anymore. i mean, i CAN care but it's not even noticable to _____ . so there's no point.
Oh man, life continues to fail my expectations... even though my expectations arent even that high.
i shall try to enjoy it.
GOODBYE :]
well....for the last 3 dasy i've been very very sick...
my mother thought it was SWINE FLU, but it was just ordinary flu.
im so pissed at myself.
Do you guys ever have that feeling when you're mad at yourself for some stupid reason...but at that moment that particular reason is the WORLD to you? that's my deal right now.
im having so much probelms with my life physically, emotionally, mentally, and so on.
PHYSICALLY because....well... im fat. LOL
i even had this dream some night this week that my ass grew bigger than a house -_- wtf...... it's such a pain. why can't i be skinny like them?... wtf do they eat to stay that skinny? .... howcome im like the fatest one here? these are the stupid questions i ask myself all the time. & im really sick of it. whenevr ppl tell me "oh yer not fat!" i respect you & i thank you for saying that, but face it, i AM FAT. it's also one of the reasons i haven't gotten a dress yet for graduation. it's like 12 days from now & i still dont have a damn dress. nothing can hide ALL my imperfections. if there was, it's would be long sleeved & it would be very very very very very long with a mask to go with it cuz my face is an imperfection itself. my height, my weight, my EVERYTHING... just has to go wrong. screw this. i wanna say i dont care, but i care a LOT. i care about this more than my grades .... which might be a problem.
OKAY, cross all of the fat business out.
my emotions are mixed... well.... idc about _____ anymore. wtf, ofcourse i do. but like it seems like i cant anymore. what im trying to say is that.... too much ppl care already & my portion isn't really necessary anymore. i mean, i CAN care but it's not even noticable to _____ . so there's no point.
Oh man, life continues to fail my expectations... even though my expectations arent even that high.
i shall try to enjoy it.
GOODBYE :]
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