Do I have a damn condition? Like is this a sickness? Because there is no freaking way a person can be perpetually putting themselves in situations where heartbreak is inevitable. It's just not normal. I know he has someone. I know he's out of my league. I know it'll never happen. But what do I do? I infatuate myself with him fml. This is going to be my life for 4 maybe 5 years: hoping and praying for snow in a dessert. It ain't gonna happen, but I will still want it. The sad part is that i already saw them infront of my face.. But it did not phase this disease that I have. It just kept on going. Really tho. I am doomed. I am so dead. This canNOT end well. In any alternate situations that I see, all will end in disaster.
