Mostly about myself and my life. Like what am I doing? All I been doing is work& sleep.
Sometimes I think yea that's how life is: you work and sleep and work to sleep and sleep to work.
But shouldn't I be having fun?
I am 18. Shouldn't I be wildin' out?
Shouldn't I be making poor life choices?
Because when else would I make those?
Ugh.
Also another thing that frustrates me is my status. Hey hello I'm single. And 90% of the time I enjoy it & I am fine with it.
Ok but there's the 10% of me that actually gets lonely. That 10% kind of wants someone to hug and kiss her other than her dog. Idk
I mean.................I haven't met anyone who is up to my standards.....but then again, if I do meet someone that meets all my expectations, would I meet theirs?
I am mediocre at best.
I am not drop dead gorgeous. Ok I admit.
I am not the skinniest.
I am not the prettiest.
I am not the tallest or palest.
I am not the most reserved or smartest.
But wtf am I supposed to do?
Lower my standards & settle?
I was always taught not to settle.
Never settle. Know what you want, and get what you want. That's what my dad told me.
I want to think someone out there will love me as much as I love them.
I wanna believe "the one" is out there somewhere.
But. Is he really?
Idk.
But if he is, can he hurry & show up in my life already lol
I'm gettin lonely up in this joint.
