I couldn't think of a clever title, so it's going to have the be a stale one today, folks.
Nearly a year has past, and I am back on this haha
Last time I wrote on this blog, I said I'd keep whoever was reading this updated with my life. Yeah...didn't really live up to that promise.
To be fair, nothing's really changed. I'm still the same old single girl who cries over JJK. Really the only major thing that's changed is I'm now in my 5th and final (hopefully) year of university! WooHoo!
There's nothing really woohoo about it because not only is 5th year already kicking my ass to shreds, but the notion of being finished with school and starting to live life as an actual adult with a real job is extremely daunting and terrifying.
To this day, I am still not sure what exactly I want to do for a living.
If someone were to ask me "What do you want to be after you graduate?", they'd get the same response I've been giving since I was first asked that question: a hesitant shrug and an anxious "I'm still figuring it out".
I'm considering taking a break after I graduate...a really really long break.
And no one of experience really favours this idea of mine...all my mentors and managers say that it's really good to get a job in the field right away so as to not let my degree become outdated and blah blah blah blah
Yes, I respect their prior experiences and knowledge. I totally get it. It scares me too - that my degree can potentially decrease in value as I take the break I want to take. But I want to take this break regardless.
I've always been on the safe side and I live my life without any real risk. Not that I want to risk my life or anything, but I've always done what was expected of me. I never once thought of doing something that wasn't the norm or something that wasn't recommended. I haven't traveled as much I want to. I haven't ventured into any real adventures.
So, recently I've decided I want to try to teach English in a foreign country after I graduate.
It's completely out of my comfort zone.
It's not at all related to my field of study or my degree. I've never lived away from home for more than a week. I've never taught anyone in a classroom setting before. And I will most likely not speak the language of the country I'm going to live in.
It's going to be a challenge. I don't know if I'll be able to get a job when I come back. I don't know if I'll ever come back. And that shit excites me.
As opposed to graduating with my BComm degree, getting a 9-5 job in a bank or some type of tech company and then what? What do I have to look forward to? My 2 week vacations that are established in my employment contract?
Yea there'll be money, and trust me that's an incentive. But is that it? That's all I've slaved over in my university years? A job....that was expected of someone from my program to have....wow...exciting. (pls note the sarcasm)
I want to take a risk...and this may be the only chance I get to do so.
Maybe one day I'll settle down and get married and have children...by then yea I'll think of getting a stable job that I was trained for in university. But right now...I'm young. I don't have any strings attached, no significant other.
I have the whole world waiting for me.
This is the time for me to take risks and stumble and get back up again while I can.
Still not too sure about the whole teaching English thing, but I am seriously considering it.
So who knows - maybe the next time I write in this blog, I'm sitting in my studio apartment in Seoul or Tokyo or something.
I'll keep you posted.
