What is that trust thing again?

Happy eve of Christmas Eve!


I've come to the conclusion that I do not trust anybody. I mean. I trust people about mundane and simple things. But. Not the really deep things. I'm still in the process of figuring out if that's a good thing or a bad thing.







Trust nobody

H vs B

Why is she so annoying to me?
Maybe cuz she has completely different interests as me. Not gonna go in specifics but. She's annoying af. I can't stand her. Good thing I'm graduating. Cuz I do not plan on keeping in touch with her after highschool.

50 shades of procrastination

1. What eye colour do you find sexiest?

~ honestly, i find hazel eyes so attractive..

2. White milk or chocolate milk?

~ I like both, but if i had to choose... i'd go with white (: 

3. if you could get a tattoo, what & where would it be?

~ I would get my date of birth in roman numerals, either on the back of my neck or my lower hip lmfao 

 

4. Did you grow up in a small town? or in the city?

~ Idk whether it's either one. I would describe it as the GHETTO.

5. Who was your favourite adult as a child? (excluding parents)

~ My uncle Rick. 

6. What is your favourite smoothie flavour?

~ mango/honeydew 

7. Most embarrassing moment of your elementary school years?

~ i have 2. 1) My first time wearing a kilt & i fell flat on my face in the middle of the street while walking to the bus stop in front of all the people waiting for the bus. huhuhu  2) It was the Halloween of gr. 8 & after i set up the camera timer to take a pic of the whole class, i fell while running back to pose. it was freaking horrendous.

8. Most embarrassing moment of high school years?

~ uhhmm... i don't really recall anything atm

9. Favourite athlete?

~ Nathan Adrian, my baby boo ;)

10. Pirates or Ninjas?

~ Ninjas. 

11. Have you ever climbed a tree?

~ yes. not a very tall tree, though.

12. Favourite food?

~ food.

13. If you could have any pet in the world, what would it be?~

~ a dog. lmfao I JUST WANT A DOG TO CUDDLE WITH.

14. What is your favourite body part? (your own)

~ the scar under my left eye.

 

15. What is your favourite personality trait? (your own)

~ My ability to perservere? idk lol

16. Madonna or Lady Gaga?

~ Lady Gaga. Sorry, but Madonna cannot sing for shat.

17. Have you ever watched the Superbowl?

~ sorry, not a football fan. (I'm gonna get a lot of shit for that response) But maybe only because i don't know how it works :$ 

18. What's you favourite sport to watch?

~ BASKETBALL. boom

19. What is the most delicious food you've ever eaten?

~ i don;t wanna seem biased or anything, but i love my parents' cooking.

20. Margarine or butter?

~ butter. Margarine is plastic

21. Fries or wedges?

~ Fries. 

22. Which continents have you been on?

~ North America & Asia. that's about it.

23. Do you get motion sickness?

~ yes. haha. only on boats. not on roller coasters. but i once wanted to bark after i got on the Drop Zone.

24. Backpacks or Satchels?

~ I'm a backpack person. only cuz i have IB to fracking deal with. 

25. Describe your style? 

~ i would describe it as 'whatever-i-find-on-top-of my-clean-laundry-pile' type of style 

26. Favourite cartoon?

~ i loved powerpuff girls lmfao 

27. How you do like your bacon?

~ wtf. uhhm extra crispy...i guess? 

28. City you want to visit the most?

~ Paris. It's overrated, but i want to see it. 

29. Longest plane ride you've ever been on?

~ 23 hr. plane ride. it was HELL

30. Latest you've ever slept?

~ oh, honey...you do not wanna know.

31. Favourite cookie?

~ I'm a huge oreo fan. & chocolate chip. & shortbread. & oatmeal. 

32. Do you pick at scabs?

~ tbh, yes. i don't want to. but i just fond myself doing it.

33. Favourite kind of bean?

~ no beans.

34. Favourite sport to play?

~ sleep

35. If you could move to any country, where would it be?

~ Sweden idk why. but Sweden 

36. what kind of food ethnicity is your favourite? Thai? Chinese? Italian?

~ Japanese.

37. What university course are you taking?

~ Business Management..i think. i hope.

38. Do you eat enough vegetables?

~ no.

39. Do you like horror movies?

~ yes, but i end up paranoid for weeks or months after i watch them.

40. Does sex mean love?

~ no.

41. Nastiest habit you have?

~ when i'm stressed, i bite my nails. it's pretty nasty

42. Do you swear in from of your parents?

~ yes, but not TO them. mostly when i'm watching basketball.

43. Coolest thing you've ever been for Halloween?

~ me.

44. If you could change your natural hair colour, what shade would you want?

~ brown. light brown.

45. Do you want to get married?

~ yes. one day. not now. not anytime soon.

46. Do you use a reusable water bottle?

~ nope....only occasionally. but i really should get into habit.

47. City or nature?

~ it depends on my mood.

48. Do you wear make up?

~ i used to. now i don't have the motivation. i go to school everyday...it's not like i wanna impress anyone in there. 

49. Can you walk in heels?

~ i can last about 5 minutes. then my feet will start bleeding

50. What should you be doing right now?

~ my homework =.= shit 

or sufferriiiiiiing

I'm so unbelievably sick of the work IB is giving me..

i can't even being to express my anger towards the program. 

I recently found this website that apparently says "the truth" about IB

how it's just a fraud & it it over priced and all this crap.

somehow, i believe it. 

but at the same time, i don't.

The website said that IB earns an estimate of over a million for every 500 students it has.

I can kind of see that since the IB fees are fracking high. 

They also said that it teaches crap & is not better than AP.

That, I disagree to.

I have learned a lot in IB...socially & academically. 

I do think it's more demanding than AP...

but i don't have the grounds to say that it's better..

i don't really know how AP operates.

anyway. enough of this website.

I'm just so tired and bitter and tired....

and did i mention, tired? 

I said this last year...i know. and maybe i'm getting a little bit repetitive...

but the amount of work is making me super depressed and borderline suicidal.

i'm not even joking. I am being completely serious.

I am killing myself anyway by having 5 straight all-nighters every week.

why not just end it now rather than having to suffer the slower process? 

I can't even deal.

University application are due soon

and i haven't applied yet...not because i'm confused of whatever

but because i have no time to do so.

You know, the only reason i joined IB was because i was told that it would give me a better chance into getting into a good university and scholarships...

well, i was misinformed.

there are only a limited amount of universities that recognize the IB diploma

and about 90% of the scholarships out there require some sort of excellence in an extra-curricular activity 

WHICH THE IB PROGRAM DOES NOT PROVIDE TIME TO DO. 

FML.

yea, IB says they make students well rounded...

by well-rounded they mean actual FAT students bcos they o not have fracking time to exercise due to the amount of homework and loads of shit they give us...

Some of the work, i get... but commentaries? TOK essays? EE? WHAT THE SHAT ARE THOSE FOR? 

i am not going to live my life making commentaries for a freaking living.

i am not going to use TOK ever in my life. why would i freaking question everything like that? 

idek anymore.

clearly i cannot drop out now. 

i'm just gonna have to stick it out until May of 2013 (if i even survive until then)

i'm honestly hoping that this suffering is worth it...

bcos if it's not, i will be on the news soon -- for having a massive killing spree  of all IB teachers and affiliates. 

what

01: tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?

~ i don't like anyone rn...so tbh, nohting.

02: what on your body is hurting or bothering you?

~ my back?...lol i constantly need a massage, broooo.

03: what was your last thought before going to bed last night?

~ "i have a shit load to do tomorrow"

04: what are you listening to?

~ the Tv in the background (:

05: what’s something you’re not looking forward to?

~ this week...it's going to be a dooozy 

06: where do you think your best friend is right now?

~ in her room? doing homework probably

07: have you kissed anybody in the last five days?

~ i'm going to assume all questions like this refers to actual lip-to-lip kissing, so no. i have not.

08: sex on the first date?

~ i don't date lmfao

09: kiss on the first date?

~ again, i don't date. but. if i do. kissing on the first date is a possibility.

10: is there one person you want to be with right now?

~ nope. i'd rather be alone right now

11: are you seriously happy with where you are in life?

~ i could write a whole book answering this question, but i think a simple NO would suffice.

12: is there something you would like to say to someone?

~ i have a lot to say to a lot of people

13: what are three things you did today?

~ i ate, slept, watched television

14: would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over?

~ hard question. if we're talking about forever? then i'd rather have them over.

15: what is your favorite kind of gum?

~ spearmint gum. YUM YUM YUM or hubba bubba

16: are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends?

~ nope. i tried. but the other party clearly does not want anything to do with me

17: what is on your wrists right now?

~ nothing 

18: ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with?

~ yes. all the people i like...i have no chance with... huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu

19: does anyone have strong feelings for you?

~ i don't think so

20: are you slowly drifting away from someone?

~ i think so...no even slowly... i think it's very rapid

21: have you ever wasted your time on someone?

~ hell to the yezzzz

22: can you do the alphabet in sign language?

~ i used to. not anymore

23: how have you felt today?

~ like SHAT

24: you receive £60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?

~ food

25: what is wrong with you right now?

~ every thing tbh

26: is there anyone you’re really disappointed in?

~ haha yes. highly disappointed in a lot of people 

27: would you rather have starbucks or jamba juice right now?

~ STARBUCKS. i love coffee

28: why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore?

~ because i'm not. was i ever? idk.

29: how late did you stay up last night and why?

~ 3am...on a saturday. bcos IB ))): 

30: when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?

~ last night 

31: what were you doing an hour ago?

~ taking a shower 

32: what are you looking forward to in the next month?

~ new years....and surviving the apocalypse 

33: are you wearing jeans right now?

~ nope. not wearing any pants lmfao

34: are you a patient person?

~ in general, i would like to think so...but sometimes i'm as brittle as rubber in the winter

35: do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?

~ lol i believe so

36: favorite color?

~ red 

37: did you have a dream last night?

~ i didn't have one 

38: are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?

~ i'm wearing a huuuuge crew neck. looks like a dress. that's about it.

39: if someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be?

~ nathan adrian/lee donghae/zac efron/booboo stewart

40: do you love anyone who is not related to you?

~ yes --> G95

41: if someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?

~ sure. there's no harm. as long as they don't expect me to reciprocate 

42: do you like meeting new people?

~ yes yes yes yes 

43: are you afraid of falling in love?

~ what's not to be afraid of? it's the worst risk you could ever make, imo.

44: ever self-harmed or starved yourself?

~ lol i cannot starve myself. like i cannot. food is too good

45: has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?

~ yea, but they probably lied 

46: have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?

~ always.