What was i thinking ?... O_o

OMG!
I wrote A LOT about this guy on my blog and i apparently liked him and i kind of just noticed that,
WHAT DA HELL WAS I THINKING?!?!?!
i mean, holy crap....
Sorry, but every girl has been trying to get his attention by doing stupid stuff... and i realized i was one smile away from doing tht. Every dang girl is like mentioning him in their pics, flirting with him, and craap like that just so they can get the tingly feeling in their tummies when he replies.... i say BULLSHIT !
what's the point of getting that feeling when he doesnt get that feeling back wen you try and talk to him ? well, no one for sure knows if he gets that feeling for a certain girl, but still. If he does, then lucky for that girl! but i doubt it. i think he's gay (=
Which is sort of a good thing since i really badly want a gay friend... but we're not exactly FRIENDS. We're more like ...... residents of the same country -_-
but whatever. so i kind of think of myself as STUPID. cuz liking him was such a dang waste of time... i swear.
i cuddah liked other guys who actually liked me back (=
or guys who arent such hearthrobs... but thts impossible.
well, yah... i like him still just a little bit. probably like 2 out of 10.
but im gonna for sure move on.




with the help of this guy,
ofcourse (^_^)

oh and he's mine (=

Delete 08.18.08

you're like an old picture,
that i didn't want to capture.
you're like a mistake,
or maybe a fake.

you're like a virus,
you make me so delirious.
you're like a bad song,
every lyric is wrong.

you're like a missed call,
or a flat ball.
an old shoe,
what do you want me to do ?

go away, get gone,
go all the way to krypton.
everything about you I'll have to delete,
but I'll always be incomplete.

Birthday list ! (what to get me...)

Okay, you guys !

My birthday is coming up in 21 days ! ...

So, that's 3 weekends to get me a present (= hehehe

but since i havent been spcific on what i want for my birthday, here's a list .... but i must warn you ... i dnt need ALL of the things on this list...it doesnt matter what you get me, just that it came from YOU makes me happy....

here we go:

1. Shirts or sweaters, sizes : M or L cuuz i want loose clothing (=
2. Pants or sweatpants, sizes : 3-5 ... yah i kno, im fat SO SHUT UP
3. Ben Barnes Pillow, you can get it from disney store, but it's freaaaaking expensive... so i doubt you'll get it
4. Digi camera. nothing spcific.. just something like a black samsung one with 7.2 megapixels, 3x optical zoom, and face detection technology. and to give you a hint, maybe look for it in FUTURESHOP.
5. CellPhone. nohting spcific, and i mean it. i just want one thts kind of like the one i broke. cuz i loved tht one

6. Harry Potter 3,5,6 (books)

7. Fantastic Beasts & Where to find them, by J.K Rowling (book)

8. Quidditch Through the Ages, by J.K Rowling (book)

9. Harry Potter 3 & 5 (movies, HD DVD)

10. Converese shoes, high-cut, single OR double tongue, colourful, and size 4 for men and size 6 for women.

11. Any Disney movies (HD DVD)

12. earrings : dangling, hoop, or stud, ANY would do. colourful and it has to be something I would wear. Hoops can't be too big, and danlings cant be too long(=

13. And if everything fails, and you don't have any money to afford any of these things.... atleast give me a HUG

I'll want a hug too if you actually got me something.

My Birthday is on September 1

AND dont forget that. LMAO.... im kidding...

ily <3>

ENJOY (=

heyy you guys....
just so you know... it's national i love you day <3

today i was suppose to get the "I LOVE YOU" of my life, but istead...
i got an "IDON'T"


well, i give up... just to tell you guys.
im gonna rip everything off my mirror,
take my teddy bear's shirt off,
take all the memories in my head,
and throw them away.

i have to move on now. i can't stay and bathe myself in pain anymore. i waited so long, but i got nothing. I wasted BLOOD, and SWEAT, and TEARS. i can't ever do that again. i can't waste anymore of my life just to get nothing.

all i can say is FUCK YOU.

Right now, i kind of hate you to death. I hope you die, then rott, then get thrown away, and burn in hell.

i hope you know i loved you to death. and i'm gonna throw all of that away.

tomorrow, ill fucking pretend likenothing happened, like i never even knew you, like i didn't love you. you know why ?

thts because

I.M.

S.O.

O.V.E.R.

Y.O.U.

But you left a hole in my heart,

you'll always be inside me.

Just for now,

bye.

This inspired by my friend's situation. NOT ME.... just to tell you, i still like the person i like ryt now... so dnt worry (=

Soft cookies.....

Today was pretty much like any day..... Since my phone broke, i'm now using my old one >_<
it's so fat )= but then again it's all i've got ...

My sister and i made cookies today (= uhhmmm i think they were called soft chocolate chip oatmeal cookies..

they were pretty good ... but they kind of gave me a little tummy ache....cuz it reminded me of someone i didnt want to remember....someone who absolutely loved soft cookies... i wonder if this means i miss him...
i wonder if this means i still care... I tried to forget about everything... even the loss of my phone helped, but i guess it wasn't enough...

All of this is making me feel so depressed and uneasy... especially after watching BOKURA GA ITA .

but ... it 's hard liking someone who doesn't like you back.
it's hard to care for someone who barely knows you.

my heart is saying, " Just wait...he'll like you and tel you rite away."
but my mind is saying, " stop waiting, it's not worth it. you can spend the time yer wasting rite now with someone else that actually likes you back!"

it's hard to decide which one to follow. im torn.
Pretty weird, huh?
you must think im a total loser for typing all my feelings out on the computer for everyone to se... >_<
...oh well....
it's hard to imgine how all of this is caused by only
soft cookies.

Goodbye...my good friend

Sometimes...things have to end even though you don't want it to.. Recently, i just lost my beloved friend.....

Well, it was a friend, and companion, a loving device... i broke my phone.

All my memories were basically in there... and there was a picture there that i wanted to delete...but i never did.... and now it's pretty much gone forever... Stupid water... why do you have to be so CRUEL ?

I was swimming and my awesome phone was lying there on my towel...Then stupid children (my age by the way) were playing with water...and they spalshed on my phone... they didnt tell me O_o they should've....

My phone could be fine by now if they told me earlier... BUT NOOOOOOOOO....they had to keep it as a secret so that i wouldn't get mad....We'll im far off from being mad.. im

FURIOUS!

I found out my phone was wet when i stopped swimming. Which wasl ike 1 hour after... my phone was still working, but it turned off even though i charged it all night and even though i never turned it off my self.... it was kind of ODD...

atleast it was working right? WRONG!

When i got home, it never worked again... I'm pretty sad right now...

My mom gave that phone to me on my birthday last year ...from that Philippines...

It was like pretty much the cheapest one -_-

but it has done a whole lot for me .... From calling my crush, to taking a picture of the greatest day EVER...

Well, things have to end .... but after something ends.... something has to begin...

i'll miss you phone

i huff and i puff....

okay so today my plan was to sleep until noon, and just be a lazy bumhead .... BUT NOOOO ! .... the world just has to do stuff that pisses you off -_-

Well... i pulled out of bed by my father at frikin' 7:30 am. and do you know why ?!?!?!?!..... because he wanted me to be his trainer for the week... he wanted to jog around the track at out school... i can think of a million reasons why I shouldnt be his trainer... First of all, i'm a frikin' bigger couch potato than he is.. how can i TRAIN him when im the one who needs training ? Second, i dont jog... i mean for heavens sake.. i tried with my friends and we basically FAILED ... what do you think will happen ? ... Third, i sleep very late as eveyone knows.. im almost a teenager and i dont really have a specific bedtime... i only know when to sleep when my mom gets really mad and shouts (= So...my dad and i, jogged like 4 times around that track which is 800 metres and we walked home... i'm freakin' exhausted... well.. im going shopping now (= im not too tired for a new shirt (=


byezz !