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Feeling a little shitty today.

i slept at 4am...

and had to wake up at 6:30am for school

then i had to do Development and Peace presentations for 6 classes first thing in the morning...

then i was bombarded with a business test on second period...

idk....

i feel like killing myself right now lol

because of all this damn stress...

but somehow i've grown to like it.

does that even make sense?

i like the fact that i'm always busy.

i like how my mind is always filled with tangled thoughts.

i've realized that having such a crappy life, makes you appreciate the beauty of everything around you even more.

before i was in IB...i thought sleep was so stupid.

i'd stay up late to play games and stuff or just stay up late just because i could...since i had nothing "important" to do...

now, i cherish sleep and it has now become a privilege rather than a right.

I have days that i feel like quitting and just sleeping forever,

but then i realize....for what?

okay i get to sleep

okay i get a social life

okay i get to go on tumblr more often

okay i get to do whatever the hell i want.

but something will always be missing.

i will eventually have to wake up.

i will have to have alone time away from my friends.

i will have to eventually log out of tumblr.

and i will soon run out of things i want to do because i have done them all.

it's all gonna seem so easy and boring.

and rather than being fun, it's going to be a tedious routine.

what's life without little challenges?...