Loser

I am such a loser.
In life, in love, in school, in everything.
What the hell is there left to live for?
Lol this sounds like a suicide note, but worry not. Cuz I'm not that stupid. At least I think I'm not...
So this girl who had herself all up in my sloppy seconds, decided to go ahead and gobble up my oldest leftovers. Not really leftovers. More like a frozen dinner that I was saving until the time was right to eat it. (leave it to me to make a food analogy to explain my life) well, maybe it was my fault for not going ahead and "eating" this meal. It definitely did not have my name on it or anything... So it was basically up for grabs and anyone could just eat it. It just so happens to be this girl. I have nothing horrible against this girl, but c'mon. This is the 3rd time she took something that I "thought" was mine. Okay... I feel a little selfish after writing that last sentence.. Why did I assume that those "meals" we're mine? I mean the frozen meal did not have my name on it, the leftover...well I was "done" with it, and the other one I failed to mention...I didn't even eat it and I don't want it anymore now I thought this girl claimed it. Why am I mad then? I guess it's because this girl has been getting everything I want...correction: used to want. I feel like even though I claimed those meals first, I always came second to this girl. Like the meals wanted to be eaten by her and not me. Like she was an improvement from raggedy old me. It makes me wonder...what does she have that I don't? What did I miss? ...aaagghhhh it's just hurting my pride so much. I don't even know what to think of myself anymore. I am completely demoralized.
At this point, I think I really am gonna be alone.
Sperm banks, get ready.
Because even though no one will marry me, this will not stop me from having babies. Lol