or sufferriiiiiiing

I'm so unbelievably sick of the work IB is giving me..

i can't even being to express my anger towards the program. 

I recently found this website that apparently says "the truth" about IB

how it's just a fraud & it it over priced and all this crap.

somehow, i believe it. 

but at the same time, i don't.

The website said that IB earns an estimate of over a million for every 500 students it has.

I can kind of see that since the IB fees are fracking high. 

They also said that it teaches crap & is not better than AP.

That, I disagree to.

I have learned a lot in IB...socially & academically. 

I do think it's more demanding than AP...

but i don't have the grounds to say that it's better..

i don't really know how AP operates.

anyway. enough of this website.

I'm just so tired and bitter and tired....

and did i mention, tired? 

I said this last year...i know. and maybe i'm getting a little bit repetitive...

but the amount of work is making me super depressed and borderline suicidal.

i'm not even joking. I am being completely serious.

I am killing myself anyway by having 5 straight all-nighters every week.

why not just end it now rather than having to suffer the slower process? 

I can't even deal.

University application are due soon

and i haven't applied yet...not because i'm confused of whatever

but because i have no time to do so.

You know, the only reason i joined IB was because i was told that it would give me a better chance into getting into a good university and scholarships...

well, i was misinformed.

there are only a limited amount of universities that recognize the IB diploma

and about 90% of the scholarships out there require some sort of excellence in an extra-curricular activity 

WHICH THE IB PROGRAM DOES NOT PROVIDE TIME TO DO. 

FML.

yea, IB says they make students well rounded...

by well-rounded they mean actual FAT students bcos they o not have fracking time to exercise due to the amount of homework and loads of shit they give us...

Some of the work, i get... but commentaries? TOK essays? EE? WHAT THE SHAT ARE THOSE FOR? 

i am not going to live my life making commentaries for a freaking living.

i am not going to use TOK ever in my life. why would i freaking question everything like that? 

idek anymore.

clearly i cannot drop out now. 

i'm just gonna have to stick it out until May of 2013 (if i even survive until then)

i'm honestly hoping that this suffering is worth it...

bcos if it's not, i will be on the news soon -- for having a massive killing spree  of all IB teachers and affiliates.