"Human Relationships are Unpredictable"

It's funny how we picked the theme of uncertainty and unpredictability in human relationships to find quotes for our English class today. I would have never thought that it would directly apply to me, to us. 

Today, a group member decided to withdraw from our "dance crew". I cried, we all cried. To be honest, I didn't expect myself to feel emotionally affected by her decision. We all expected it to happen, anyway. But I cried. I couldn't control it. Which is extremely strange since about 2 days ago, I wanted to kick her out myself. But now that she's actually out, now that it's real and there's no way we can reverse the situation, it hurt me.

Our dance crew is not just a  group of dancers trying to perform. It's more than that. A symbol. A physical representation of our bond. It's the base of our friendship. I would not be friends with literally half of the people in our group if I didn't join their dance crew. Her not being there...I feel that there's going to be a hole that nothing else can fill. But we're still going to be friends, right? I hope.

How unpredictable is that? I swore I didn't give two shits about my relationship/friendship with her, but...in the end I was saying empty words out of pure frustration. I DO care. She was a friend, she still is...and nothing can change that. Yes, we've slightly diverged from each other. But at least now I know it's because of factors that none of us can control. Her health is something that shouldn't be compromised just because of our performance; I get that. But I'm still disappointed that she will not be up on the International Night stage with us. Regardless, I'll stay her friend. I'll be there for her when she needs me. There will definitely be times that I will be frustrated and angry that she decided to leave, but I'll learn how to deal with it eventually for our friendship's sake. 

Six people may dance on the stage of our last International Night, but there will always, always be seven members in Generation '95.  





p.s.
at least now I know I need waterproof eye make-up for graduation