Last daaaaance.

well, we had our grad lunch today.... it was basically a lunch and a dance in a rented room.
the dance floor was pretty small, but there wasn't a time where every grade 8 was in it.... so i guess it was just the right size of dance floor for us....It was pretty dead at first, but then SLOW songs began to play & i had the chance to dance with one of my best guy friends :) you know who you are.
it was our last dance... so i danced with like.... 5 guys. & no it didn't include him.
cuz i kindah promised someone that i would try to get over him.....but it would've been nice if we had that one last dance....
After all the dancing...the DJ recommended everyone to go to the dance floor because it's the last song that he's playing.............all of a sudden the song called "Graduation" by vitamin C was playing. everyone was in a circle on the dance floor. well, ALMOST everyone.
i was alone in a corner. i didn't wanna cry & i know if i join that circle, i woulddah bawled my eyes out.
the song ended and i actually kept my tears from exiting the lower lids of my eyes.
then everyone like came to me and started hugging me and saying, "ill miss you!".... and that's what got me.
the tears that i tired to keep from cascading down my face, flooded my eyes and eventually.... i was FULL-ON CRYING.
I'm usually not the crying type.
i tend to keep my emotions inside....bottle them up so no one can see them.
But then all of that just exploded today.
Every memory,
every failed test,
every smile i gave,
every hug i got,
every fight i fought,
every apology i gave
every time i laughed until my stomach hurt,
& every single time a person tickled my heart,
turned into little droplets of salty fluid that seem to come out from my eyes uncontrollably against my will.
i tried to stop, but the more i fight it, the more tears i cry.
i felt pretty stupid standing on the bus going home, with my eyes bloodshot - red...and tears falling down randomly....
People probably thought i was a mad woman -.-
Walking home was pretty pleasant. i was with 3 awesome ladies. one them left early tho.
I surprisingly stopped crying.
my body probably ran out of tears to dispose.
we ate freezies, and sat near the parking lot of GT and reminisced on our memories together.
How can someone make 50 years worth of memories in only a certain amount of time such as 1 year and a half?......
It's something not even i can explain, but
i do know that they will last a life time. Here in my heart.
ily, forever. <3 i hope noone forgets me. ^_^