bubble wrap

"i wish i could bubblewrap my heart. In case i fall, and break apart"

im not quite sure what to do next... im pretty sure you're like 10 steps ahead of me.
you've moved on and all.
and im still on the same spot for 4 MONTHS.
wow, i just realized that it's been 4 months exactly today.
SEE?... i can't even keep track of the time because im just focusing on the past!
i kno i shouldnt be doing that, but i can't help it.
Sometimes it just pops into my head.... and it just...stays there for the longest time.
i've tried....getting over you.
it worked for like 2 weeks max.
i tried replacing you with a guy that literally only attracted me by my SHALLOWNESS.
he was hot/cute/goodlooking and all...but i didnt evn know his first name!..
THAT clearly failed.
I remember you telling me that i took a piece of your heart... and you can't seem to get it back...
that was a long time ago.
Now, i think you got that piece back...
and took like 3/4 of my heart with it.
GIVE IT BACK, OR ILL SMASH YOU! >.<
goooooosh,
i feel like punching you in the face.
and be your friend at the same time.
i hate to say that i love you still...
and i really wish i bubble wrapped my heart before you shattered it in a million pieces.
i think all i need is closure.
so here it goes:

I love you. I probably still do. I'm not God, so I can't change what happened to us, what started us, and what ruined us. I have to deal with the fact that all is lost between us. Our bridge has burned down. I have to accept all of that. I'm not even sure about our friendship anymore. I mean, our conversations are mostly just "hi". I think it's for the better though...cuz the less you talk to me, the faster i get over you...right? I'm really sorry for wasting a part of your life. Since you moved on, i have to as well. It's like balancing an equation in math.( eww, nerd) what you do to this side, you also do to the other. That way, we'll be even... Theres something missing in me, like a variable...you know? (eww, anohter nerd comment) which is why i have move on to the next steps and figure it out...so i can be complete again.
and so, this is goodbye <3