almost 16.

whaddup homeslices,

so....it's 2:20am aug. 31st....

in less than 24 hours, i'm going to be 16 years old.

i don't really know what to think of it.

I'm not quite sure if i should be sad or happy or excited..

i can't say i have mixed feelings about...cuz to be frank...i have NO feelings towards this upcoming event.

another year passed by....

isn't that just a reminder that i'm getting old?

Sweet sixteens are sculpted by society to be this coming of age thing...

the girl becoming a lady.

i'm still a little girl.

and im fat and ugly...

when i was about 8...i thought when i turn 16, i will be this beautiful girl that everyone likes.

obviously that was wishful thinking

cuz im here...

just me.

fat

ugly

stupid

and all.

nothing else to offer really...

when i turn 16 tomorrow...

i will be sad.

i AM a pessimist.

so w/e.

the only think i will be looking forward to is taking my G1.

for real.

maybe my opinion will change tomorrow...but

right now, im feeling kind of like shit.