well...sometimes people just do shit in front of me like i'm freaking invisible.
so i know lots of stuff that i'm pretty sure i'm not supposed to.
Taking in all the classified information that i retained, i've realized that i'm the only one [in my present group of friends] that hasn't been communicating with an ex.
Do i have some kind of disease. though? I mean... I have always wanted to be friends with an ex, even before i started to be interested in dating.
I have no clue if I'm the problem or if it's him
i admit, i'm very socially awkward.
But c'mon...he's like unapproachable.
He talked shit about his exes when we were together, i'm quite sure he did the same thing when we had 'broken up'.
Am i just supposed to go up to him and say "what's up? hows the hoes?"..
like...there's nothing to say.
Nothing worth talking about atleast.
when starting a conversation with ANYONE....
i usually start with these topics:
1. school/work
2. friends(mutual) or w/e
3. relationships lol
4. problems
5. the weather? (ony when it gets really awks and a conversation must be started)
if i ask the x-man about school...i'm not gonna have anything to relate to cuz he's in academic...and i don't wanna seem like im bragging by talking about my IB tings.
if i ask him about friends...i'm gonna just get frustrated cuz we don't have mutual friends anymore..he dumped them the day he dumped me lol
correction. i dumped him. but you get the point.
it's just gonna be awks cuz my friends are awesome, but he doesn't really know them. and his friends are... the popular bitches and douches that i really have no interest in. so that topic would just go down the drain.
if i talk about relionships. OH LAWD. no. don't even get me started. i don't wanna hear about all these cyatts that he has banged. i don't i really DON'T. but if i do ask him about his love life, i'm gonna seem like i still care about who he's with. which i don't.
if i ask him about problems..he's not gonna tell me the ones worth talking about cuz that closeness has faded to nothing between us. it's gone.
Definitely not going to talk to him about weather...he's not worth it.
so there you have it.
i can't talk to him
it's just not gonna happen.
Yeah, i feel left out cuz i'm the only one who hasn't reconciled with their ex.....
but hey..
i've only had one ex...
maybe it would help if i made more ;)
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