not really rant...
but i wanna just give myself a pep talk lol.
today, i got an assignment back from my math teacher...
honestly, i thought i did pretty good...
but then i look at the mark. i got a 1/12.
my heart felt like it dropped to my stomach and the gastric acids started to denature it.
i felt defeated and the rest of the class, i did not listen to the lesson at all.
i was just. shocked.
i never ever in my life gotten anything within 1 digit percentage.
1/12 ... that's 8 percent.
like holy fuck.
this is my wake up call.
i cannot just sit here waiting for the grade to come to me.
i need to work for it.
i need to stop with all of these distractions.
i need to block out stress, and think of it as only a psychological thing.
sleep is not needed. lol
yes it is...
but like.
i need to focus.
it's almost 12am an i have business homework, a biology test to study for, a math lesson to learn since i did not listen today, an i have to get started on a math assignment that is due on wednesday which is the same day as our chapter 5 math test.
math is right now my weakest link.
tomorrow evening is the awards night, and i feel extremely defeated that i did not get a single award.
not even honour roll.
i need to step it up.
no more slacking.
sleep is now optional.
i will now make myself a cup of coffee and do whatever i can to bring all my marks up, especially math.
good bye (:
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