do you ever feel like a plastic bag?

LOL at my title. sorry, i was just listening to that song and had no idea what i would title this post ;P

I have lots to talk about, but I'll try to make short because i have homework to do.

Anyway,

I'm in my senior year of high school now. O_o

i cant even comprehend how fast all those years went. Maybe the fact that i was so damn busy made it seem even faster.

OMG. is there a way to change your email address on this site? I use a different email on this one than youtube and every time I'm making an entry while listening to youtube, one always logs off ): mostly youtube.

waaah. i'll have to deal with that later.

anyway, speaking of being grade 12... These god damned niners/sophmores/juniors are bullying me. Maybe it might not be bullying in other people's eyes, but cmon. they kicked a water bottle at me TWICE. and i'm not the only one. Honestly, i think that they think i'm in grade 9 or something. i don't blame them for thinking that, though. I am very short... and i have a jansport bag, which only means you're either a niner or an IB student. and i do not look smart...but really? kicking water bottles? Ugh. I held my tongue and kept my cool, but i wanted to honestly beat them the fcuk up. (excuse my french). No, but really. I wanted to swear and punch them. I'm pretty good at controlling my emotions (in my opinion), but if they keep doing this i will explode. honestly. I can only control so much. and when my anger peaks, good lord seek for fcuking shelter. I scream. I swear. I hit. I kick. I shove. I throw. I rip. And I will not stop. 

Well, at least that's what i think will happen. I haven't exactly gotten to that point of anger, ever. but god forbid I lose my temper with these kids. Whenever i pass through that hallway or see them, i visualize like deadly torturous things i want to do them...it's not even funny. This is not normal, js. I never have gory thoughts, but with these kids...i do. I swear.... I hope I don't turn out like those battered souls that come back for their high school and shoot everyone. cuz i'm not bout killing innocents. or anyone for that matter.  

I plan on asking a few of my biggest friends to come with me after school to pass that hallway. It's the shortest route to the bus stop and maybe they'll help fend off the assholes. 

I actually walk in that hallway with Jana. But they target me lol am i THAT vulnerable? 

God forbid they try anything with Jana...she will roundhouse their asses. 

and if that doesn't happen my wrath will come out because..people can mess with me, that's fine. I can handle most of it. but mess with my friends? mess with my sister chromatid? hurt them in any fucking way? You're done. It's over. You better think fast enough to call 911, cuz it's going to be a bloodbath. Maybe i'm exaggerating a little bit, but i will go off. I WILL.

Enough of this cuz i'm beginning to feel angry. I have more to talk about but I have homework staring at me and making me feel guilty. so bye.