I don't even know why I'm crying right now. Frustration maybe?
I can't do anything right.
I keep hurting the people I love.
I know you're trying to understand and all but you don't.
You tell me I can change if I really wanted to, but the thing is... I do want to change. I don't want to keep hurting you guys. But I still end up doing so. You don't know how hard I try not to. Everything is just so frustrating. I'm sorry if I'm always so fucking bitter and have a scowl on my face. Trying to make you proud of me and meet your expectations of me ( which btw never happens) just drains all of the happiness out of me. There's no way out of it. My life is always going to find a way to disappoint you. But for you to tell me that I don't try? That I don't make an effort? That hit the spot. Cuz I give it my all.
If you're always disappointed and all I've given you in life is grief and sorrow...then maybe I should leave.
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